THE SECRET
Don’t you ever wondered ’bout my idiosyncrasies
I know you did, but never said a word
The way I speak, the things I do, they sometimes seem so crazy
Don’t you ever thought I was disturbed
It may be that you think it’s just a part of my nature
No reason there to worry, ‘cause I’m just a human being
You mean that I got ups und downs like any other creature
But I can tell you that is not the way it is
I’ve got a secret to hide in myself
A secret that no one should know
I carry it deep inside of my soul
It never leaves me, no matter where I go
Chorus: Can’t you hear it in my speaking
Can’t you see it in my eyes
Every word I’m saying
Is a part of that advice
Anything I’m doing
I do just because of that
No one would believe me
But that’s a thing I don’t regret
Crawling, crawling inside me
It’s always beside me
It won’t disappear
Cursing, cursing the mirror
When I look inside
Then I get full of fear
I can still remember when they turned the scum onto me
The moment when the horror filled my soul
When I was forced to quickly rape the dangerous behaviour
To free myself immediately was my goal
Since that very second I feel a little anxious
Whenever I meet someone I don’t know
The same old look, the same old voice, and it comes up inside me
Again I get that tons of feelings, all in a row
Afraid of the people that don’t need to blame
A damage inside of my heart
Reacting in a way that actually I don’t want to
But that secret cranks me apart
Chorus
My whole life is damned
I say it again
But I’m just a fucking normal guy
Just usual in the end
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